i was so tired yesterday that i actually slept at 9pm. when i reached home, i showered and then slept. i couldnt even move. i just slept like a little baby. yesterday was the day where we had to commis for the final term students. in the morning, it was kinda hectic with everyone being all slow and all but the afternoon was slow. so practically we were doing commis from 8am-7pm. all of us were so beat after that. had to even send samir, nick and widad home. sheesh.

today was kinda ok. had kitchen theory exam. which was easy. last minute studying really got me this time. i studied and studied and studied. after the exam ... i went to the library to study for the next paper which is tomorrow, nutrition science. i fell asleep until everyone else left the library. i drooled all over my hand, hehehehe. hopefully no one saw it! heheeh. i didnt know why i was so tired. maybe i over slept? yeah. maybe. went home around 8pm after studying my last stroll of little notes. had a hard time remembering from the notes. i hope i do good tomorrow. i cant really study at home ... just a little lazy as i always think that when i come home, i just want to relax.

i must remember for next term that i have to concentrate in class so that i dont have to go back and study. everything is practically given during lectures. so yeah. thats my goal for next term.

i've been really running wild. my heads been left, right, up, down. i just dont understand anything anymore. life's been bitting me in the ass. little by little. i dont think i can take anything anymore. i want to be left alone and just die alone. sometimes its hard to let go. things can be replaced, but love cant. i just cant replace the love she gave me. oh how i want it so badly now. sigh...

rick.